Done already!?

Hmm...already done with this weeks assignment which feels fantastic but at the same time worried about how much studying we're expected to do before the final exam...?? I mean... I've gone though my notes and all the assignments again to prepare for the exam and I feel like I know the stuff quite well...so what else can I do...?

Having my lunch now and wondering if might have missed something... The exam worries me quite a bit... Since my school is online we get to download the exam and it has to be returned after 24 hours. I understand logically that we're not expected to write for 24 hours straight but how much time is reasonable to give the exam...? I feel a bit stressed over the whole uncertainty of it...oh well... *fingers crossed* that it all goes well anyways! :) Wish me luck!

Lately I've been thinking (panicking!) about going to university/college in January (last date to apply is mid Oct.) and after being SO set on getting a teaching degree I'm no longer sure. It might just have to do with the future being more permanently set after starting uni...I mean, I know I can change my mind but I don't want to keep studying forever and... I want to get it right from the start!

The reason I want to teach is because I think it's one of the most important jobs in the world and I've been lucky to have a few truely awesome ones (and a few really bad ones) and I think I could possibly be, perhaps not awesome but, a good one... I love kids, their openness for new things and for learning and exploring and I'd like to be a part of that "magic".

I'm really not sure what has put doubt in my mind about if teaching is for me...but something, just the other week, made me think in a new direction... I still want to work with children but perhaps I might be better at listening than teaching...? Working as a school counselor perhaps? That would mean I'd have to get a degree in social work (socionom in Swedish) and unfortunately it's, as far as I know, fairly difficult to get in to that program...and the job prospects in the next 5 years (when I would have my degree) are not nearly as good as for teachers... I don't know... it'd be important to still work with children...and there's no guarantee for that...? I just don't want to be stuck in an office, a disgruntled social worker... :/

I don't know...of course I'll need to look into it some more and nothing stops me from applying to both but I just feel a bit baffled over my quite sudden "change of heart"...which really isn't a change but...yeah...you know what I mean...?? :/ :)

Looong lunch break today! ;)

E.