:)

I thought I'd last 'til the end of the week but nooo...! *blush* Just had to have a quick glimpse on blogger to see what "the world" has been up to in the last few days! *lol* ;) Kiddies are in the bath and will force me to wrap things up soonish so I might not even "spend" my entire hour today.

I'm bored silly but at least a little bit contructive... ;) I sent my application in for the autumn's studies on Monday! :D

Here they are, hastily translated and in priority order. Only two are close by in Borås, rest will require an few hours travel each day but...apparently it can be done... :I It will be done! :)

1 Social Studies program, (i.e. degree in social work).
2 Teacher program, Swedish, Mathematics and English for earlier ages (Borås)
3 Teacher program - Civics for earlier ages
4 Teacher program - Man, nature and society for earlier ages
5 Teacher program - Swedish for earlier ages
6 Teacher program - Swedish as a Second Language
7 Teacher program for kindergarten and first grade - the foundation of learning (Borås)
8 Teacher program for kindergarten and first grade - Culture and language
9 Teacher program for kindergarten and first grade - Children and growing conditions, learning and development

If I've understood it correctly I'll find out of (hopefully) acceptance "only" to two of the "programs", that's even if I would be fantastic enough ;) get into all of them. I'm considering adding a few courses at the end of the priority list to "be sure" that I have something else, but work, to do after the summer....? I really don't want to loose my "study flow" by taking a year or term off.

Okidok, kiddies are calling! Going...now...! ...miss you! ;)

♥ E.

It has been done! :)

All my pre-set, automated log in's have now been undone...!

The Challenge begins!
We're closing in on midnight and I don't want to start time on my weekly blog-time so I'll wrap this up too. I'll be in again at the end of the week to let you know how things have gone and, hopefully, let you know that I've sent in my application for Uni. Better get it done before the final date which is April 15th. :) The computer system has a "funny" tendency to crash on that particular date...! ;P Better safe than sorry. :)

1 hour/week isn't an awful lot of time to read/write blogs so no hard feelings if my comments or check-in's are short or far between!

I'm taking control of my time!! :D
Keep me in your thoughts! :/

♥ E.

Get comfortable...!

OK, I've posted my "last" set on polyvore and getting ready to sign out. Then I realise that I'm not going to get to share any of my sets in the next month so I'm scrambling about thinking what want to post here before it's "too late"...! Not thinking about the fact that you all will still be able to go to my polyvore-page and have a dander about even if I'm not able to...! ;) *lol*

Oh well, here's a simple set I did 9 days ago that I really like. Because I get it, I'm getting there and I feel great about finally realising it...! :D

I hope you do too!

♥ E.

*sigh*

This is hard...!

I've already logged out of a few of my time-consuming sites and it's getting closer and closer to log out of polyvore and facebook...the biggest/baddest time-stealers!

I'm SO totally addicted! *lol* It's kind of sad actually, rather than funny, but since I'm borderline freaking out about doing it I'm laughing rather than crying... SO weird...! I'm glad I've decided to do this 'cause I'm obviously needing a break from it all...
I mean, no ones life is THAT interesting (and mine for sure isn't!) that I need to know about it all the time!

*nervous laughter*

Yeah, yeah...
*breathing*

Oh... *talking about something else* New Moon was great...! ...as a I've-already-read-the-book-kind of movie. I loved it because I knew about all the stuff that the story line in the movie missed out on... She, (what's her real name?) Bella, really isn't at all like what I've imagined when I read the books...she's sort of deprived of a sense of humor in the movies that I feel she has in the books. She's not giggly funny haha in the books either but they've made her much more...awkward in the movie...

If I'd seen the new moon-movie before the book I might honestly not have cared enough to read it. It was different with twilight, I saw the movie first and just had to read the book afterwards! I will definately have to sqeeze in reading eclipse soon, before the movie premieres (in June?). I'm thinking about getting it now and keeping it as an incentive to get my history essay done!? *lol* Perhaps a bit risky perhaps but I seem to enjoy torturing myself...! ;)

Yesterday, halfway through the movie, Anton woke up and was sick...! :/ Poor thing... I was so sure he'd be "safe" as Erin's alright now but apparently not...or maybe he caught someone elses bug the short time they were at dagis on Friday...?

We did manage to see the movie through 'til the end with a few pauses to check on mister-man but last night wasn't great as I woke any time he stirred (or when I thought he did) and he was sick again in the early hours of the morning too. Stephen took over then and I got some sleep... Happy birthday to me! ;)

Little man's been OK during the day and he's managed to eat some too without it coming back up so I'm *fingers crossed* hoping this is it over and done with...! Still have to be careful with what they get to eat in the coming days and they're both off milk and yoghurt 'til tummies are in working order again...

Little ones are asleep now so I'll do another turn and log out as I go along...not long left now! :[ :) :/ *sigh!*

♥ E.

*sigh!*

Time for change...?

♥ E.

Happy birthday to us! :)

Home again from S&B's! :) As always it was lovely to see the Family again and I got some good pressies to! ;)
Mary Kay stuff from cousin K., New Moon-movie from Stephen (with help from B :)), money from Dad and A + a "gift voucher" for going shopping with mum and/or sisters...! ;) I'm (thankfully!) in desperate need of new, better fitting, clothes! :D My auntie & S got me a gorgeous orchid and my uncle unexpectedly didn't get me a trademark cacti but a beautiful bright pink and white...hmm...what are they called again...! :/ Nope...lost it now but will try to post a pic of the plant tomorrow! ;) :D

Big little miss J got cool stuff too! :D Being 6 is great! ;)

I'm clearly feeling the heat of my previous promise as I don't think I've ever blogged this frequently before. ;) I'm glad I've allowed myself some blog-time because April is going to be full of stuff that I would have felt very strange about not being able to share...!
Erin's turning 3, I'm sending in my application for the autumn's studies, I'm sitting for my "SAT" on the 10th and Stephen and I will have been married for 7 years on the 26th... + spring will definately be here and...yeah... It'd be to hard NOT to get some time for blogging... :)

Now I'm going to sit and enjoy New Moon with Stephen... :)

Anton JUST now fell asleep - 2 hours "late"!?! Thank you SUGAR!! *phew*

♥ E.

Photo game!

I have to open my first photo album, count to the 10th picture, post that picture along with the story behind it:

(Difficult task as I have lots of photo albums that I access from different parts but this was the 10th most direct picture!)


This is Anton on March 24th 2007.

It must have been my niece Julia's 3rd birthday party (and my 26th). He's about a 1 ½ years old, I'm heavily pregnant with Erin and oh! :) Elisia (Anniina's daugher) was born that same morning! :D

I'm not sure if Julia got the crown as a birthday pressie or if she had it before, but Anton wanted to try is and was just too darn cute ♥ and was photographed by my uncle J. (if I remember correctly).

Funny thing that this is the picture that was randomly chosen as we're going to my big sis's to celebrate Julia's 6th, and my 29th, birthday today!! :D

So, I'm tagging Nee, Sanna, Maria, Katti and Chris for this photo game!

♥ E.

:D

Another award! :D Thanks Cora!

The Rules:

1. Place the award on your blog or within your post.
2. Pass the award on to 12 Sunny Bloggers -- those whose positivity and creativity inspire others!
3. Link to the nominees in your post.
4. Tell the nominees they've received the award by commenting on their blogs.
5. Share the love and link to the person from whom you received the award.

I'm changing the rules a bit, 'cause I really don't read that many blogs (yet I still wanted the award! ;)) and it'd not be fun to renominate everyone again so I'm going to tell you about people, both blogger's and non-blogger's, who inspire me. :) They may post the award on their blog if they want and/or carry it with them in their hearts! :D

In no particular order...! ;)

My little sis Anna - who's brave and up for whatever challenges life gives her. She'll give it her best and doesn't dwell on the past. Always with a her mind set on the future even when it's not always clear... ♥

My good friend Malin - A beautiful and stong woman. A great mother, with a spirit that shines! She's had more than her fair share of hardship along the way but doesn't let it break her. She's an inspiration and proof of how truly important ones friends are in this world! We'd be lost without them! :)

My soul-sister Renee - We've yet to meet face to face but this gorgeous woman (I've seen photos! ;)) is just a few years older than me but has an ancient wisdom that just fills me with awe. I'm a better mom, wife and person for knowing her! ♥

My "sister" Anniina - We've been friends for ever and ever and she's the sister I've chosen for myself. It means that we sometimes have to work a bit harder at the "sister"-thing than I have to with my two other "true" sisters, but we've done okey 'til now... ;)
I love her to death and I'm lost, and terribly alone, on this planet without her. ♥

"Friendship is the severest test of character.
It is easy to be loyal to family and clan
whose blood is in our veins, but to have a friend
and to be true under any and all trials
is the mark of a (wo)man." ;)
- slightly edited Charles Eastman

♥ E.

Great News!

I'm going to be an auntie again!! :D

My big sis is expecting a "surprise" ;) 3rd little one in September and I'm about as excited as I'd be if I was having one myself! :D

I can't wait! :D

♥ E.

Birthday gift/challenge for myself!

So, here's my confession...

I do waaaaay to much time-consuming stuff online! I need to get better at organising my time between the must and must-not's, especially online!

I've been thinking about this for some time now and...well...the idea of doing something rather than moan about it has grown on me ;) so I've got a plan and I'm going to give it my very best try! :)

I've decided to welcome Spring and celebrate my birthday (woot!) with a challenge! :D Intrigued...? ;)

Here it is, The Challenge:

* NO timewasting stuff online for a month!

* Logging out of Facebook, Msn, Polyvore (my latest maaad addiction!), MIS, Familjeliv etc. and so on and staying that way until May 1st!
No peeking allowed!!

* Study related surfing is allowed. *phew!*

* Blogging is cut down to just 1 hour/week and that includes both reading and writing! :O

Challenge starts Monday 29th March (the day after my birthday), 'cause this is no April fools!It might sound like a silly, simple, challenge to some but I think I'll find it HARD...! :/

I'm hoping the challenge will give me a new perspective on things and end up being a GIFT for myself too... :) I've got plenty of time-wasting thing I can do off line too so we'll see. Just hoping to waste more of it with/on the family, you know...? :) Or perhaps even on a brisk walk!? :D ;)

So, what do you think...?
Will I'll be able to do it? Would you be able to do it...?

My online social life will be quite dramatically reduced but I'm hoping for a few more phonecalls, :) maybe a few more (not spam!) e-mails in my inbox and...perhaps even an old fashioned, and far to rare, face-to-face-date or a snail mail in our post box!? ;) :O :)

♥ E.

Lazy bum!

...is what I should be doing!

But I just can't motivate myself when I've got the little ones at home...! I totally go into at-home-mode with general lazyness, laundry maybe and stupid time-waisting online etc. and so on. It's not even like I morph into "great mommy" and do lots of fun stuff with the children - that'd at least feel like a good "excuse" for skipping school work... lazy-mode really isn't!! :/

...and rather than focusing on school work (or morphing into something fabulous) I'm again waisting time...online! :P :/ :) :[

I think I've maybe, sort of, hopefully, managed to solve the being-without-money-this-summer-problem. It'll mean working and studying full-time in June but hey, if anyone can manage doing life at 200% it's surely me, lazy bum-E.!(?) :/

It'll not be quite that bad! ;) Not great, but not bad... (as per usual then!) *lol* Perhaps I should make that my new motto?

I'll do another English course. To pass I'm supposed to be able to talk, read and understand the language from different periods/places and adjust my spoken language according to the formality of the situation (i.e. work vs. everyday) ...I should be alright...right? ;)

*sigh!* Now I've got the not-so-fun-task of organising kids toys to do...! I'm FED UP with it being all over the house and the most fun they have is tipping them all onto the floor. :/ I'm only going to keep what I know they play with, the rest is gone...!

♥ E.

♥ E.

Missy E's not well...

She wasn't herself at all last night when I came home from school and she didn't want her dinner at and was quite miserable...poor little miss! She just wanted to get to bed so we got her ready and not even an hour later she was sick...! :/ typically enough in our bed...

She's like me, really, really doesn't "want" to be sick and is shouting for water in the middle of it all... poor petal! :/

Thankfully she was "done" quite quickly, I really think it helps so much to give her/them the fluid replacement (salt/sugar water) straight away! We very very rarely are stuck with a tummy bug for several days which I know others are... I think 24 hours is the longest any of us have been unwell!
She slept well all night, with a slight fever but nothing I felt needed reducing. This morning she wanted something to eat and got a little bit of bread and later a bit of an apple and it has all stayed down fine. She reeeeally wants "proper" tap water but I'm keeping "safe" for another while. She's been very tired today so she still not well, I'm letting her sleep as much as she wants...

Anton was "of course" giving us full four-year-old-tantrums last night in the middle of all the puking... *sigh* He's started being quite cheeky and I'm not happy about it...! :[ It's not OK to talk back to us the way he does, even if it can be quite humorous at times. It's hard keeping a straight face at times but still... cheekiness is not OK and he's just in some kind of repeat-mode so right now I'm ignoring him as best as possible with a warning when he goes to far...

♥ E.

p.s. Annoyed about my spell checker not working...! I can't figure out why...! All my settings are in English so it really shouldn't be a problem, and before it's sorted itself out after a day or two...not now though...

Pondering...

Could I be a Swedish teacher...?
Probably going to give myself another tummy ache from this but...recent events :) both in Maths and my writing class has made me think... Could I teach this to others...? Do I know enough? Could I learn enough...?

I mean...I've always thought that human interactions are interesting and it's one of the reasons I love history and religion as much as I do. So I've always thought that teaching History would be my thing...! :)

When I was looking into what different options I have to apply for in the autumn I got "stuck" at things "not me", for example, teaching Swedish as a second language (i.e. for immigrants) and I was sort of puzzled that that was even slightly interesting to me...?

I'm not great att grammar or the structure of my own (or any other) languages. I've been good at English because I've practised it and learnt how it's supposed to be. But don't ask me why or how come or how the grammar stuff works...! :/ :)

I don't like Maths! :) ...but I do appriciate the beauty of it. The rules and structure, the few times it manages to make sense to my pea-brain! ;)

The reason for my ponderings about these things is because I'd put any Swedish or Math teaching programs at the end of my "priority list", sort of hoping I'd get accepted to something higher on the list first but now... I'm thinking...
Should I step out of my comfort zone and try (believe I can do) something different...???

♥ E.

SuPeR pLeAsEd!

Ok, feeling less gloomy today...! ;)
Still not sure how to sort things out ahead but...at least not stressing about uni applications, right now that is. ;)

My first class this morning was "creative writing" where we got response on our short stories that were handed in a few weeks ago.

My short story was sort of stressed out in one day and not nearly finished, from my point of view at least, but she (my teacher that is) was over the moon about it! :D

She said she didn't have enough superlatives to sufficiently describe how much she liked it...!!! :D :D :D

Because she and another Swedish teacher thought it was so good (too good...?!) my short story was the reason that we all had to mail our work to her again via this computer system that checks school work so it has not been copied form previous work or of anything on the internet... :D I took it as a huge compliment since firstly, they thought it was that good! Secondly, I know that my story is mine and thirdly, I was already aware that it was returned to her a few days ago with a 0% of questionable sources...! :)
ALL mine and brilliant! :D ;) :D

The fact it wasn't properly spell-checked or that I'd missed a punctuation here or something else there didn't matter 'cause the overall work was A+++ !!

This is my first proper attempt at a (fictional) short story... I've handed in written work before of course but not anything this "big", in this way and I can't tell you how pleased I am that she liked it, that she (and other teachers, there were more than one!) loved it just seems...beyond words... :')

♥ E.

Stressing...!

I'm feeling a stomach ulcer coming on...!
I was all cool as a cucumber yesterday about going back to work in the summer and feeling we'll sort things out. Then I let it sink in a bit I realised that (if I don't get work before July, which is likely since I'll be going back on a summer temp job) I'll get my first pay in mid-August...! :/ That means NO money from me June, July and only a tiny student grant end of May...!!
That's not good...at all...in the slightest.

And since one thing's stressing me I can naturally quite easily find stress elsewhere too...and closest thing at hand is of course the autumns ((im)possible) uni studies and all my options that are just too many for me - ms. don't-make-me-choose-just-tell-me-what-I-want! :/

detordnarsigdetordnarsigdetordnarsig
It'llBeAlrightIt'llBeAlright ...somehow...?

And is my History assingment getting done with this heavy lump in my gut...? Noooo...don't think so! So the history of the Kyrgyz and Kyrgyzstan (*lol* no, I'm really not making it up!) will not get done right now...even though it really should... The assignment was due today! :/
*sigh!* I got an OK from teacher to hand it in on Friday though so I'm not terribly terrible... just stressed sick...!

Believe it or not but I'm actually most stessed about applying to Uni!?! What sort of madness is that!? I guess it's the fact I can't do much (anything) about not getting any income for 3 months (ouch!) but I can still mess up my application or choose the "wrong" thing...!

AND I miss Nee...!

AND the bliiip:ing spell checker's not working on blogger so my post will seem even more crazy as my spelling will be rubbish!

♥ E.

The summer...

I'll be back to work for me, 'til September when (hopefully!) uni starts. I was considering doing a distance univeristy course over the summer but I felt quite overwhelmed, mostly because applications had to be in yesterday...! I just didn't feel it would be a good start picking a "whatever"-course. Working is going to be a bit, tricky, to manage but we'll do it...we'll have to do it! ;)

Working feels alright, not great but OK. I mean...there's going to be a bit of late nights and missing putting kids to bed and weekend work too but...more money. :) That'll be the good part! :)

Wish I could stay for a longer "chat" but I've promised Anton to make pancakes... Talk more later.

♥ E.

Wooot!!

I got last weeks maths exam back yesterday and OMG! I got 43/44 points and the 1 point I missed was a tiny silly exam-stressed mistake...! I could have totally aced it!! ;D :D A maths exam!?! The world no longer makes any sense...! *lol*

My dear darling Nee is now only a small giants stones throw away in Stuttgart (rather than the usual Cali-almost-other-side-of-the-planet-fornia ;)) and I can almost feel how close she is yet just out of reach... :/ I hope you have an amazing time hun! :) SO amazing you'll want to come over again soon (and/or stay forever! ;) ) ! :)

Time to take kiddies to dagis, I've got a history assignment due in tomorrow and I'm not even half way there... :I

♥ E.

For Baby I. ♥

My oldest and dearest friend A. had a beautiful, healthy, baby girl today! ♥ I was lucky enough to see her, and her little family, last night and I was thrilled to hear labour had started early this morning and baby (still no name) was born noon:ish! ♥ I can't wait 'til I get to see the little cutie pie! ♥
Congratulations to Mum, Dad and big sister Elisia! :)

♥ E.

Phenomenal Woman

(by Maya Angelou)

Pretty women wonder where my secret lies
I'm not cute or built to suit a model's fashion size
But when I start to tell them
They think I'm telling lies.
I say,
It's in the reach of my arms
The span of my hips,
The stride of my steps,
The curl of my lips.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

I walk into a room
Just as cool as you please,
And to a man,
The fellows stand,
or Fall down on their knees.
Then they swarm around me,
A hive of honey bees.
I say,
It's the fire in my eyes,
And the flash of my teeth,
The swing of my waist,
And the joy in my feet.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

Men themselves have wondered
What they see in me.
They try so much
But they can't touch
My inner mystery.
When I try to show them
They say they still can't see.
I say,
It's in the arch of my back,
The sun of my smile,
The ride of my breasts,
The grace of my style.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

Now you understand
Just why my head's not bowed
I don't shout or jump about
Or have to talk real loud
When you see me passing
It ought to make you proud.
I say,
It's in the click of my heels,
The bend of my hair,
The palm of my hand,
The need for my care.
'Cause I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

Thinking of who to pass the award on to made me realise how many awesome, phenomenal, women I know and I remember reading the above poem on my sisters blog aaages ago and I thought I'd share it.

Believe that there's a phenomenal woman in you, I think she's in all women...we just need to believe and dare to let her out! ;) :D

♥ E.

Award! :)

Beautiful Cora passed along her very well deserved award on her thought-inspiring blog The Postulations of an Iconoclast to me! :D My very first award...ever?! :) Thanks Cora! ♥

The Rules of the Award are as follows:
1. Thank the person who gave you this award.
2. Share 7 things about yourself.
3. Pass the award along to 15 bloggers who you have recently discovered and who you think are fantastic!
4. Contact the bloggers you've picked and let them know about the award.

Ok, some of those rules are easier than others... :) :/ ;)

7 things about me:
~ I ♥ babies. Especially when they're in the very first eat-sleep-poop-phase that "most" people find a bit dull because the baby doesn't "do" anything. :) I know they do plenty and I'm amazed at what it must be like to be that new to this world...!

~ When I was little I wanted to be a nun. :) Strange thought since no one in my family is at all religious and not even close to being Catholic. After realising I liked the thought of having a family of my own too much I "settled" on the idea of joining a convent as an old widow (you know like in the Middle Ages!?). *lol*

~ I want to learn Arabic ...or Icelandic. (!?)

~ I'm terrible at tidying! I really don't like doing it but love it after I'm done...why is it such a chore?!

~ I love crispy clean bedlinen, I sleep like a baby! It's just a shame that feeling only last for a night or so...

~ I love the cloche hats of the 1920's and 30's and I "miss" us not wearing hats anymore...why did we stop?

~ I wish I was a Domestic Goddess but I'm coming to terms that I'm alright even if I'm not. Being sloppy ol' me isn't all that bad after all...

*phew!*

I thought that was going to be the easy part yet it took time to think of 7 things...! :) The task of picking 15 other well-worthy bloggers feels like an enormous task, especially as I don't really follow that many.

I guess the "point" of these awards are that you can follow them to new (at least for you) amazing blogs so I hope your Swedish skills are good...! ;) Only one blog's in English... :)

I pass this award along to:
* My big sis's fantastic (and not so new) blog Phenomenal Woman. I've been a faithful follower since the start in the autumn ? of 1684 ;) and I amazingly enough :D never tire of hearing about my adorable and amazingly clever niece's or the stuff that we've all been up to! ;) When I'm not feeling up to blogging my sister's blog keeps my Swedish speaking friends up-to-date! :)

* Most awsome Renee blogs OnTheGoodLife about just that, the good life. I get to follow her amazing family and her life as a mum and student and dream of what great pals we'd be if we were neighbours. ;)

* Next will be übermaison, an old friends (fairly new blog) about the amazing house that she and her family live in. A house in need of and getting some amazing TLC. Beautiful house and beautiful taste from a beautifully talented gal! :)

* Underbaraclara is actually a new blog I've started to follow. Clara's a high-spirited girl who describes herself as a Christian, feminist, fashionista (hope that turned out right in the translation!). :) She's got lots of interesting projects going on and and has some interesting thoughts and posts a lot of beautiful photos, quite often of her gorgeous self. A total eye-candy blog! :)

* Kattitingeling is the fantastic blog by another amazing and talented woman, my cousin Kat, who know's what she wants and goes for it! Blog is spiced up with cute pin-up gals after each post. :)

* Kat's husband Chris's blog onemountainsplace is filled to the brim with his wit and (mostly (only?) his own) photos ranging between everything from beautiful bugs and his gorgeous wife to the Statue of Liberty and the Gothenburg docks...!

* I've recently started following Nostalchic's blog Beyond Sizes. She's an inspiring BBW with a great fashion sense. She's full of thoughts and ideas of how the Swedish market could improve the limited selection of plus size clothes they currently have to offer. Until that changes she shares with us what we have to choose from abroad/online and boosts our self-esteem with her "Curve boost"-photos of gorgeous plus size women! ♥

♥ E.

Spring! (?)

I'm almost afraid to say it but...I DO feel spring in the air! :D The sun is warmer, even with the still freezing temperatures.

Sloooowly the snow is melting away (love the dripping noise!) and then freezing again at night so the roads and walkways are thick with ice... BUT! :) There's actually some places where the asphalt can be seen and it's all just SO lovely! :D Add to that the beautiful, and later annoying, sound of birds singing in the early morning...

I think it's safe to assume that Spring is on Her way...!

♥ E.

Relax for goodness sake!

:) I'm getting quite frustrated with myself for not being able to chill out about this terms assignments etc. All I "need" a good grade in is Maths but really a "pass" is really good enough too...! I'm supposed to enjoy this final term before (hopefully) studies at uni/college and I'm not enoying myself when I'm stressed out!

The exams I've done so far, 3, have all come back with very good grades and I should just learn to reeeelaaaax...!
*done with scolding myself*

I've gotten a good bit of the material for my history essay together and it's really interesting stuff! :)
* ♥ History!*

Last night I started to have a look at what different teachingprograms are available for me in the autumn and I felt quite lost...! :/ I'm going to apply to as many places and programs as possible but how does one know which one is right, if I even get accepted to any of them...? :/ *nervous!*

I'm probably going for a university summer course this summer, since I'm now "qualified" (?) for them, and :/ there's SOO much to choose from and I'm kinda scared too... *blushing* What if I'm to stupid for univeristy studies...??? :/ :\

Oh! Gotta run! History next! ;)

♥ E.