August!?

:O On Thursday I looked at our wall calender and realised that July was as good as over...! Were did the time go...?? Now it's August already (!) and in two weeks I'm "back" to school again, with "proper" classes and schoolmates etc. Honestly, not looking forward to it at all... :/

I'm starting to feel the air going out of me slightly...not having had any real time off for a year. Short breaks here and there but not a holiday... I'm starting to crave a break, just to be for a bit, and not constantly do stuff.

Stephen's home now and seeming better, mood is lighter and hopefully the change in his meds have done him good.

I've been worrying a bit over the affect Stephen's illness will have on our little ones and I try to keep a close eye on them to spot any kind of worry or stress...nothing so far (more to the contrary in fact!) except the perfectly normal missing daddy when he's away...
The mum of one of Anton's little friends told me, when she was dropping him off after a play-date, that he's so good and easy to deal with and secure... that truly warmed my heart! :) What mother doesn't worry about their child not feeling secure in the world...? With S gone so much lately I've not felt sure that I'm enough for them...
Looking out the window now and seeing how well they play together and how good they are to each other I feel so blessed and grateful. I must have done something right...??

E.