Still feeling a bit... hmpf...!

Yeah... :/ tomorrow's day 1 of 5 at one of the smaller schools in town and 5 days feels, right now, eternally long. I feel slightly more prepared than I did the other day but SO much depends on how good my tutor is, how motivated she is to help me learn and grow as a teacher. If she is then my work placement has the possibility of being fantastic but if she's not then these 5 day will be hell...! :/

I really really don't like the uncertainty of it all, I don't like things being left this much to 'chance'...not when it come to my education and my future. It shouldn't be left to luck if I make it through or not. It should be well organised and structured with minimum possibilities of surprise! Being surprised is a part of the profession, dealing with uncertainty is to be expected as a part of the job but not in the initial parts of learning of how to be a good teacher... :/


I'm not looking forward to tomorrow...